If you’ve been around me for a while, you’ll know I’ve published a bunch of stuff over the last few years. This actually started in my computer business, when I was writing little guides and manuals to help people learn to use their computers. I still write books and guides, but now they are designed to help people get unstuck and move forward or empower themselves through healing. Most of those books I gave away for free. The majority of them ended up on the freebie bestseller lists on Amazon, but I never made a dime on them. I gave them away because I was sabotaging myself. I didn’t value my own work. Because I didn’t value myself or my work, why would anybody else? It was part of the money story that I’ve told about not having enough. The truth is it came back to not being enough within myself. With my latest book, The Emotional Truth, I put it out there at $2.99 USD, which felt right. I didn’t put it on sale. I definitely didn’t give away for free. I simply allowed it to do what it was going to do. If I only sold 3 copies, then so be it. I wanted to see what would happen if I simply put my stuff out there, was proud of what I had done, and didn’t discount my work. I’m not retiring anytime soon, but I’ve made more on this book than all my other books combined. It didn’t make the bestseller list but people actually paid for it and that means more than the freebie bestseller list ever did before. Something I didn’t expect also happened. Some of my older books started selling a few copies. When I started valuing my new work, my older work also increased in value. Making this shift in my story wasn’t easy. I had to get okay with where I was. I had to get okay with having fewer copies distributed but actually make a little bit of money. For a while part of the story was that I was more worried about the size of the audience than I was about the money because I believed that a big audience would automatically lead to money. That’s not true. At one point in my computer business, I had a Facebook group with a couple thousand people in it. I tried to monetize it and sell stuff in that group the same way I did in my last group, but I couldn’t. Nobody bought anything ever. I was so busy giving everything away for free from a really triggered place, that I had collected a whole bunch of people around me who only cared about what I was giving away. Now don’t get me wrong, I still give away huge amounts of content for free. Honestly, I don’t hold anything back anymore. I can remember spending hours trying to find a line between paid content and free content in my computer business.…
e next 10 episodes, I'll be going through each chapter of the book to expand on it and talk about it a little more. Today we're starting with chapter 1 which is self-awareness.
When my energy is stable I am stable. It's not about what I'm doing. I write. That's what I do. That ability to write and share is what brings people to me. That's how I create stability and flow via my own energy. I've shared many times that stability is within us, it's not outside of us. My stability is not in my work or my PayPal account. My stability is inside me, it comes from the flow of what I share every single day.
Are you blocking out the experience or are you allowing yourself access to it when you need it?
This is expansion. It is the awareness of all the pieces and being okay with all of them. The space we have access to grows, it doesn't shrink. That's what expansion means. Suddenly we have access to all of these old versions of ourselves. They don't trigger us. They don't bother us, even when they are reflected back to us by other people, we're already aware of it so we're okay with it.
ange and transition are scary. In this video, I'm talking about not only the fear of change but how to manage and use our energy to move forward, even when we're physically needing to do other things. It's possible.
ou're physically doing the work, your energy is still wonky. So now you're putting wonky energy into your goals. You can't get there from here. Don't worry about the physical world, sort out your energy, then it doesn't matter what you're doing or not doing.
On that final day in that house, as you grab the last couple of things to walk out the door for the last time, the memories can flash by. The sentimental feelings show up. You look around one last time and maybe stand there for an extra few minutes, but then it's time to go. You walk out the door and shut it behind you. You turn around and walk away. It's over. It's done.
In this episode, I talk about my own experience over the last few days with the struggle with my momentum and my confidence. Listen as I have my own little lightbulb moment right in the middle of the recording and learn how I'll use that to handle things next time my confidence decides to take a holiday.