My Fear Wasn’t True
Fear is a story we tell ourselves that often isn’t based on truth. It’s based on our perception of what is or it’s based on others’ perceptions or projections of what is. We’re only able to see the truth when we can back away from the fear. As long as we’re in fear, the truth will remain hidden from us.
So, I want to tell you a story about my own fear and how I used it to make up a story to keep myself stuck. A few years back, most of my debt and bills went to collections. If you’ve been following me for a while, I’ve been telling these stories on and off for a long time. This one particular thing that went to collections was actually with the bank. This particular collection agency kept threatening that the bank would simply take the money from my bank account leaving us with nothing. That was the story of fear that I picked up and believed for a long time.
For the last maybe 6 months at least, I’ve not been answering the phone. I’ve been ignoring the collectors, not just this one but all of them. I had to get okay within myself first. The fear, anxiety, and stress that all of those calls had created over time, had built up so much that I could no longer handle any of it. I had to walk away at least for a while so that I could heal. I’ve been sharing that journey with you.
It was only late last week that I started answering the phone for the first time in months and I just got a surprise based on that old fear that I had been carrying around. You see, we have been moving the majority of the money that comes into the house onto a pre-paid credit card so that we wouldn’t have to worry about it being taken. It turns out that the fear behind those actions was a lie.
The debt moved to a different collection agency that isn’t threatening me with anything. The money would have been safe in my bank account, probably for months already. The fear was unfounded. The threat never materialized. Nothing happened.
There are a couple of things I want to point out about all of this. First is the benefit of the cocoon that I put myself in. I needed that healing time. I needed to gain perspective and I needed to stop responding to my reality. The fear I was feeling wasn’t helping me see things clearly. It wasn’t helping me understand what needed to change, not in the outside world but within myself, so that I could find a way to take some control over myself. Fear clouds judgment and perception. With the removal of fear came clarity.
The story of fear caused me to do things unnecessarily. Buying into the fear had me playing a game I didn’t need to play and creating a problem to solve that wasn’t even there. The mind is a great place to hang out. You can see what it created for me. I’m sharing this with you because I want you to see how important staying out of the mind, staying of fear and anxiety is when you’re determining what’s yours, what’s not, and what action you may need to take.
I’m still human too, and I’m still cleaning up stuff older versions of me created out of fear and powerlessness. As I do that and I come back to these situations now as a completely different person, I gain immense clarity around what I had created for myself and why. I see how the fear and powerlessness played into what I was doing and the choices I was making, and how none of that was helpful to me.
Fear has kept me stuck in this cycle of debt and lack for many years. I haven’t had the ability to control that sense of fear and powerlessness within myself until now. Now I understand where it came from. Now I’m beginning to understand how it weaved its’ way through my life and what it created for me. Now I’m beginning to see that I don’t have to tell those stories anymore. I’m not powerless and there is nothing to be afraid of.
I teach what I’ve learned and every time I gain clarity and understanding it’s because I’m applying the things I offer you. Stay out of the mind. Stop telling stories that don’t help you. Put your power back inside of yourself because that’s where it is. Pay attention to your perception because it’s usually not very accurate. Decide what’s yours and what’s not and stop collecting junk. Stop trying to control the outside world because you can’t. Just focus on yourself and trust that everything will work out because it will, it always does.
I share my human stuff because I want you to see that I’m still human too. All the clarity and intuition in the world doesn’t help me make life perfect. It doesn’t help me prevent problems. It doesn’t stop me from gaining a new perspective on my life sometimes. What it does give me is the ability to take the clarity and use it to help myself and you to move forward and change your life if that’s what you want.
What is your own perspective on your own life?
Where is fear playing a role for you?
How can you get out of that? How can you see it differently?
Is it possible that the fear isn’t true?
Nothing in my reality changed. I changed within my reality and that is what is giving me clarity and peace. You will have to do the same thing for yourself. Don’t change reality. Change yourself within your reality and then watch what happens around you.
Love to all.