I could complain that it was the old cycle showing up or I can recognize the costume and see the disguise for what it is and do something differently. This is how we break cycles. This is how we allow a change to happen. If you're in a cycle and it doesn't matter what it is and you want to break it, you have to respond differently to it when it shows up. If you don't, you perpetuate the cycle. If you don't it happens again.
f avoidance is based on fear that shows up as a lack of motivation, then it's up to me and my awareness to catch myself. In the past, it's been easy to pawn it off as a bad day, or just not being interested anymore, or deciding it's not working, but generally, those things aren't true. It's just me putting up my own roadblocks and stopping myself from doing what I want. I successfully jumped the hurdle yesterday, but that may not happen every time and that's okay. As long as I can catch it the majority of the time, I can keep going until the behavior stops happening.
ange and transition are scary. In this video, I'm talking about not only the fear of change but how to manage and use our energy to move forward, even when we're physically needing to do other things. It's possible.
Meanwhile, my awareness of all this is in the background, covering one eye, hoping it doesn't die in a fiery crash as I don't necessarily stop the impending doom quickly. So, here we are. Here I am. Blog time of course. What else would I do when faced with an infestation of the mind?