I've wanted to teach since I was 5-years old. I can remember hating my Kindergarten teacher because she had us do the same things every single day. It was the most boring Kindergarten class ever. To be fair to her, she was pregnant that year and I don't think she was feeling the greatest as a result. It was definitely a survival thing for her until she go on leave. Now, as an adult, I feel bad for her. I've done that and it sucks! But, I also thank her now too because she, inadvertently made me a better teacher years later.
There's a lie in settling for something that you don't really want because you think it's what you can get in the moment. Settling is telling yourself nothing better is coming, you don't deserve what you want and there's no point in waiting to get it.
Nope, I'm not talking politics. I'm talking about goals, dreams, purpose, wants, needs and desires. I'm talking about all those things that we get told we don't deserve, shouldn't have, can't have, are too expensive to have, or are just plain crazy. We all have them and we deny ourselves the right to have them, often based on that feedback from the outside world.
I'm not asking you to agree with me. You can choose whichever reality you would like. I'm putting my viewpoint out here for those that are interested in it. If it doesn't jive with you, that's fine. Simply close the tab in your browser and move on. No harm done.
We all have them, crazy ideas that keep us where we are. We believe we aren't good enough, that we shouldn't or can't, we believe that other people won't like it so we don't do it, we believe that we don't have the money, time or other resources we need to do the thing, we believe it's hard or too complicated or will take too long or we just believe we can't for no good reason at all.
The truth is one of those things we talk about all the time. But what is it anyway? Who decides what’s true and what isn’t? This isn’t a political post. I’m not talking about general societal truth. I’m talking very specifically about our own individual truths and what that means to us individually. Most people skirt around this issue because it’s a tough one. We can spend most of our lives unlearning the things we were taught as children. Those things are true for our parents and they meant no harm in what they were teaching us. The problem though is that our truth as parents is not the same truth our children will have as they grow up. Just the same the truth our parents had is not necessarily ours now. There is nothing wrong with having a different reality than our parents did. There is nothing wrong with doing things differently than our parents did. If your parents are anything like mine, you get made to feel guilty for not being a robot, for not doing it exactly the same way, for not being carbon copies of them. I’m essentially doing it wrong because I’ve chosen not to do it their way. In their eyes, they failed because I’m not identical to them. This has been a difficult thing to work through and it’s taken me until now to get to a place where I don’t care anymore. By trying to live up to what they wanted me…